Where did this problem come from?

Dear Energy Lady,
Either I have really bad luck, bad karma, or I'm doing something wrong.   I changed jobs about 3 years ago, and was really looking forward to it.  I came in with a great attitude, lots of enthusiasm, and plenty of hope that things would work out well.  But all I encountered were control freaks, negativity and put-downs.   I feel stuck, dissatisfied and frustrated.  How could this happen when I was so totally positive?

Signed,
Feeling Down

Dear Down,
In Fullistic practice, we don't talk about things like luck or karma.  There's only what you do or don't create, or how you respond to what others do or don't create.  All of life is energy evolving and under transformation, including you.

So several things may be happening here.  You don't say what your old job was like or why you left it.  Did you leave a negative situation, or did you go because you had grown out of the job and wanted a fresh challenge?  If you left for negative reasons (as many people do), then it's possible that the beliefs that drove that decision are still with you, and what you're experiencing is an outpicturing of them.  Look deeply at your thoughts, fears and beliefs, and you'll see if the energy is still with you.

If that doesn't appear to be the case, ask yourself if you're not the negative one.  You say you came in with a great attitude, but what words are coming out of your mouth?  Are your actions aligned with what the organization needs?  Are you producing the results they want?  It could be that you need more training, skill building, organizational or managerial support or something else to up your game.  If you felt really, really good about your results, would that change your job experience?

If it still doesn't feel like you, then ask yourself:  was I unhappy in my last job? Or the job before that?  If I was, did I do any self-discovery to clear the beliefs that were making me unhappy?  If you didn't,  then likely, that energy is still with you, and you're experiencing the "same old thing" in the "brand new place."   You can never get away from yourself, because everything IS yourself.

But if you did feel that you left your old job feeling good, cleared any old beliefs and stuck energy and that now you're doing your absolute best, then something else may be going on.  You may have planted your energy in the wrong place.   Just as some plants do better in shade and some in sun, you won't thrive in the shade if you need a lot of daylight.   What kind of environment allows you to thrive?  Does it exist where you are now?

Finally, step back and look at what you need emotionally, spiritually, materially and energetically.  Evaluate yourself, the job and the people you're with.  But don't just do it by thought.  Go to your heart, and put the problem there.  You can also try giving it to your higher guides while you sleep or meditate to get answers about what to do next.

Love,
EL